Winter Break

Off to a good start. So far it's consisted of partays, books, and a whole lot of hanging out with people i love. I saw the Princess and the Frog today with a friend-his idea, not mine and surprisingly I liked it. I'm usually very critical about the way people of color are portrayed in the media (especially by Disney) because we are so often underrepresented, misrepresented, and stereotyped. Given the cultural context of the film I guess you could understand why the female lead was oppressed-and the film did make a sort of social commentary on class structure. There's so much more I could say but I fear I am writing out of the fact that school is over and I need something to do. Anywho, the movie was cute- I laughed, I cried.

Plata Quemada

Most intense film I've seen in a long time.

Mirrored in devotion

Lonely little love dog that
No one knows the name of
I know why you cry out
Desperate and devout

Timid little teether
Your eyes set on the ether
Your moon in a bella luna and
Howling hallelujah

Nameless you above me
Come lay me low and love me
This lonely little love dog
That no one knows the name of

Curse me out in free verse
Wrap me up and reverse this
Patience is a virtue
Until it's silence burns you

And something slow
Has started in me as
Shameless as an ocean
Mirrored in devotion

Something slow
Has sparked up in me
As dog cries for a master
Sparks are whirling faster

Lonely little love dog
That no one knows the ways of
Where the land is low is
Where the bones will show through

Lonely little love dog
That no one knows the days of
Where the land is low is
Where the water flows to
And holds you

Esta Lloviendo

I dreamt of a decapitated head. I fear that I am becoming more and more morbid.

This Place is a Prison

These people aren't your friends...what does it take, how long must I wait?

Oh Vanguard, fuck you.

Stuck in a funk

Thanksgiving break was what I expected it to be-lame. Holidays are always shitty for dysfunctional families. I wish I could find a balance at home. I'm starting to feel like no one in my family knows me or understands me. I felt really isolated over break and I'm dreading what winter break will look like. God help me (please excuse the emo content of this blog).

I'm tired

of everyone and their damn opinions. I wish people would stop assuming the worst about me.

Today is a special day

Highly Refined Pirates

Model frenzy is still in full effect. Here's some of my favorite looks !


Some of my not so favorites

Did anyone else notice the gimp went out for a walk?

Turn Left

I've been on a bit of a male model frenzy. They're adorable and inspire me to get a new haircut.

Dia de Silencio

It's amazing what you can learn in one day of silence. I need to shut up more.

Spiritual Discipline of Simplicity

This is my new self project that I'm walking through with my pastor. Wish me luck in simplifying my life friends.

Let the wild rumpus start!

This is a little late.... I got a chance to see Where the Wild Things Are and I absolutely loved it. The cinematography, the MUSIC, the complexities of emotions, the dark and melancholic atmosphere of it. I LOVED IT. Definitely going on the favorites list. I think Max is adorable and is the male carbon copy of retro.

And a hundred million musician-composer points for Karen O for composing a score for a film! How fucking awesome was that?! The soundtrack is going in my ipod soon!

Dia De Los Muertos

This last Saturday, I got to attend a Dia De Los Muertos celbration in L.A. My morbid insides were jumping for joy as I was surrounded by the celebration of death. The event took place at the Hollywood Forever Cemetery in L.A. and I found out it was the only cemetery that opens its gates up for this celebration, needless to say-I was very happy to take part in this. I had mixed feelings about it being at a cemetery- this was the appropriate place for a celebration like this but it still felt weird and kind of paradoxical that a death celebration was being celebrated by living people in a place where the dead laid. I saw a bunch of really awesome alters and I got a chance to stand before the Ramones graves (gabba gabba hey!). Here's some pictures taken by my lovely little sister:

Shoplifters of the World Unite!

So, I am trying desparately hard not to loose myself in the midst of all the things that are happening with me. For once in my life, I feel powerless. I am trying not to become bitter, angry, and hostile towards the whole situation. SO, what I will do to regain some sort of control in my life, is give my life back to vegetarianism. Yup. I took a two year break with meat, and we all know that was silly- it's time.
That was a weird picture that popped up when I googled "vegetarian".

Morrissey and a cat?! That shit makes my day.

poop

Days at Vanguard have been long. Long is an understatement. In my morbid spirit, I've indulged by listening to nothing but darkwave. My current obsession:

Conversations with Theologians

Big booty professor: How are you?
Me: Eh, good.
Big booty professor: Good?! Only boring people are good.
Me: Haha you saw right through me.
Big booty professor: You're too interesting to be good.
Me: Thanks?

Middle of the semester

It's about that time in the school year where I start to loose sleep. Pray for retro, I have a lot on my plate. This month is Domestic Violence Awareness Month and I've been busy helping run events, making flyers, and talking about the issue. As important as this month is, I want this month to be over so I can breathe. Healthy sexuality week is coming up; sexuality on a Christian campus is an akward conversation to begin with so I'm anxious to see what comes out of all this. The student leaders got a preview of what the speaker is going to do- I'm trying to be open to healthy sexuality week, trying really hard.
On a lighter note, I'm thinking about going to India this summer! I probably won't graduate this year, I'll be a super senior with an extra semester. I'm still mad at myself for not going to Argentina this past summer (that's another story) so I figured that I should do three months in India before I graduate and start applying to grad schools. Mommy wow! I'm a big kid now. In better news, it rained this morning! That's something to smile about :) and even better news... retro is in love. It's true.

San Diago

Today! I'm ditching work and school to go on a mini road trip with the bff :)

This picture just makes me happy

Spiritual Formation

I love my job